When in trouble and in when in doubt,
run in circles and scream and shout.
That’s just about the way I feel.
Venting to my spouse didn’t seem to work. No wonder really. There’s nothing she can do and it didn’t make the “situation” go away. It has nothing to do with her anyway. It’s a work thing.
The fact of the matter is that no matter how hard I try to manifest all the wonderful shit in my life that Law of Attraction and You Create Your Own Reality people seem to think I can conjure up, it just doesn’t seem to materialize. No amount of affirmations, visualizations or cut-outs from magazines or what-have-you seems to do the trick.
I know. It’s probably because I don’t really believe. There is something in my subconscious that is holding me back. Keeping me stuck.
Yeah. Maybe so. Or maybe the shit is just a bunch of mumbo jumbo that is suppose to make you feel like you have some control when, the truth is: you don’t.
All I know is that I’m damn tired of bad people getting the “rewards” and the good people getting the “punishment”. It should be the other way around, right? Right?