Here’s the thing.
The Law of Attraction people say that if I think positive things and hang out with positive people and do positive things than positive stuff will be attracted to me.
Sounds pretty nifty, huh?
How’s this (and this is for real)? I was at a week long conference with Jack Canfield a couple of years ago and he likened the positive thoughts or the affirmations or visualizations to sending out a purchase order into the Universe. Now, I’m sure he was just using this as an illustration for some larger point but what I heard was this:
If you want something to appear in your life, visualize and affirm it and the Universe will take care of the rest.
Of course this was a week long thing so there was more to it. The “right way” to visualize and affirm and all that kind of stuff. I was really hoping for the best.
Instead I’m no further ahead than I was two years ago.
I’m told it’s because I don’t hang out with the right people (you are the sum total of the five people you associate with the most) or because I don’t take action when i need to or any number of other reasons.
Maybe so.
It’s just that, for some reason, I cannot get out of this fucking rut.
I don’t have a “passion” for doing something. I obviously don’t like what I’m doing to make money so the personal development and abundance GooRoos will tell me that I’ll never get out of the rut. I have to do what I love, you see. Whatever that is.
What really kills me is that just when I start thinking that I’m getting out of the rut, getting out of the quagmire of debt and general listlessness, something happens to kill the momentum.
That’s right.
Just when I think, “Ahhh. I’m starting to feel better about things. Life is taking a turn for the better. Yay!”, something comes along and BAM! the big setback. It’s pretty frustrating, let me tell you.
I should be grateful and thankful for what I have. People younger than me are dead and have left behind families because of war and illness. People I know or know of get desperately ill and then die. In comparison, my life is a bed of roses and a bowl of cherries.
On the other hand, the personal development GooRoos are always saying not to compare. ”Don’t compare your insides to someone else’s outsides.” or words t that effect. The idea here is that everyone is different. Yeah, they may be rich and famous but they can’t keep a relationship for more than 2 years…or they have no family life…or their health is bad…or they work 24/7.
I’m really trying to find that balance between striving for something which may never come and being satisfied with what I have.
It’s not as easy as it sounds.
